After the Convention in 2013, I grew a huge hatred for the show after all that had happened.
I found it very difficult to come to terms with what we had achieved, what had happened and that it was over.
They always say the anticipation of something happening is better than than the actual thing, well it wasn't, but the aftermath was horrible. I did get quite depressed after the Convention, I couldn't talk about it, I couldn't watch Pet and even the thought of being involved with it again was very hard to comprehend.
I am not sure how it was for anyone else, and if they felt the same way. I guess after reading Rhills comments in the post about being ready to watch it again, and how for him an era is over, it made me think back and get this off my chest.
It took me a few months to get back into it, and before that time I was really forcing myself to get involved with the site and everything else. Looking back now, I am not really sure why I felt like that and why it happened, because Auf Wiedersehen, Pet is such a massive part of my life for many reasons, that I truly feel gifted for doing what I do and making many people happy.
I am not a show off, I am a very quiet and private person, and I am sure not looking for sympathy or for anyone to pat me on the back and say 'well done Lee etc'.
Today I feel very privileged for what we did that weekend, who we met and how we became friends. I do hope one day we can all get together for the same reason and not only celebrate how great Auf Wiedersehen, Pet is and what it stands for, but to just see you lot again....even you Tim.
This is always something I have always wanted to 'get off me chest', because I know a lot of fans on Social Media just think what we do is a 'piece of piss', and it isn't. We pride ourselves in what we do, Myself , Tim and Andy and it takes a lot of hard work to knock out what we do.